Wednesday, September 5, 2007

who am I

there are a lot of people who have said that it is hard to understand yourself. i agree with them somehow. i am quiet, sane, obliging, and placid. there are my good opinions from others. maybe it is because of my vanity, i always show my positive side to others. however, i am crazy sometimes. i drink with my friends until the next day morning, i yell to my younger sisters, i drive without permit and license, and i am selfish sometimes. but i dont like to show my negative sides to others. moreover, i value commitment, inner qualities, scholarship, honesty, and kindness. these are hard and ture fact, but there is a lot i dont know about myself. i dont know how i feel about abortion; and i have mixed feelings about religion and American politics. it's hard for me to give a comprehensive proclamation of who i am, for my identity unfolds more everyday as my experiences grow. since i am 21, life has a lot of unfolding to do.

I dislike saying"i am trying to fine myself" because my identity is not lost, it just needs more uncovering. i found my identity from the mistakes i have made. It's also the good way of self-reflection. some people complain to someone else when they make a mistake, but finally they will fine out the most faults were form themselves.

My parents and I always had trouble to communicate with each other before i wnet to college. They controlled me a lot. They didnt like me to talk with boys, they didnrt want me to dress sexy, and sometimes they even looked at my dairy. I always thought they didnt do the right things what they beyond to do. So i started not to talj to them, i didnt want to go to the restrarant to help them, and sometimes i didnt even want to see them. When i attended the college, they give me lots of free time, and gave me chances to make choice. However, they work in the restaurant wothout a off day. Finally, I found out how selfish i was. I was wedded to my own opinion and nothing could change me.

everyday my experience and knowledge was enhanced and i learn more about myself. I am not worried about that I dont know everything about myself, as i get older, i will figure it out.

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