Today I walked by the St.John's church, my mind became so intricate all of the a sudden: happy, upset, angry, self-contradictious, worried, heaviness and contend, etc.
I felt happy because the boy I cruch on who wants me to be his girlfriend,haha. But i need to test out him more,because I don't want him to play me as a toy. Another reason I felt happy because my cousins came to the USA couple days ago, their father missed them so much and he has waited for the visa for many years.
I felt upset, disoppint and angry with my sister's boyfriend. We went to "East Dynasty" on Flushing yesterday, because my cousins just moved here, and my sister and me invited them to have a big dinner. During the dinner, one of my friend just talked too much and he speaked with vernacular, but my sister's boyfriend didn't understand any. Then he became so mad and angry and talked to my friend:"please don't say something that is nonsense" with really mad tone. Suddendly we got so embarrassed. We don't understand why he acted like that. A few minutes later, my sister and him left. luckily we still had a nice dinner. But I still felt bad when I went back to my dorm. I think everyone should treat one another with manner and courtesy, especially in this special situation. I feltl so sorry for my cousins because this was the first time they had dinner with me in the USA.
I also feel self-contradictious with my major. I am taking 2 economic classes this semaster. I got 87 on my history of western economics class, but I only got 68 on the Microeconomics class. I don't know if I am good at business field, and I do't know weather to choose accounting as my major.
I worried about my GPA, I worried about my parents' business, and I worried about my sister and her boyfriend's relationship. I don't know if they are really fit each other.
I feel burden because there are a lot of homeworks, my English still limit, and my mom always wants me have a good grade.
Dispite there are a lot of intracate feels on my mind, but I still feel contend somehow. I know I am lucky because all my family are supporting me, my friends are all around me when I have problem, I have chance to get higher education and I never complain to GOD.
This complicated mind led me to the memory of my high school life. I remembered when I was in 11th grade, in the end of April. There were tons of things going on. April is the season for badminton, it is my most intresting sport in my life. It always makes me feel confidence when I play badminton. There were a lot of competions during that period. But April was also the time for taking SAT. I took the courses for SAT extra help class after school, it was mandetory thing I need to do; April is also the busiest season for my parents' business, and at that time, my parents had no enough workers to do the job, then my parents asked me to work some hours after school, and i also took drive license class during that time, etc. As so many things were going on, can you image how did I solve all the problems. Actually I didn't solve all the problems because I didn't go to the badminton match, and I cancelled my drive lessons. People always face tradeoff. "oppotunity cost" is the most impression words in my mind when I took econimic course, that means if you want something you like, you have to give up something else you like. Chinese people said:"you cannot have fish and bear paw at once." for instance If you want to have a good grade, you'd better put lots of effors on it, and you gotta reduce the rate of watching TV and talk/chat with your friends.
Even though there are a lots of challenge things in my life, I think I have the ability to solve them. I think the most challenge thing is to make chioce, but it's the way of life and it's the way to make you grow up. I know everthing is going to be better finally. Chinese leader MaoZeDong said:"Nothing is too hard to achieve, if you willing to climb."
I felt happy because the boy I cruch on who wants me to be his girlfriend,haha. But i need to test out him more,because I don't want him to play me as a toy. Another reason I felt happy because my cousins came to the USA couple days ago, their father missed them so much and he has waited for the visa for many years.
I felt upset, disoppint and angry with my sister's boyfriend. We went to "East Dynasty" on Flushing yesterday, because my cousins just moved here, and my sister and me invited them to have a big dinner. During the dinner, one of my friend just talked too much and he speaked with vernacular, but my sister's boyfriend didn't understand any. Then he became so mad and angry and talked to my friend:"please don't say something that is nonsense" with really mad tone. Suddendly we got so embarrassed. We don't understand why he acted like that. A few minutes later, my sister and him left. luckily we still had a nice dinner. But I still felt bad when I went back to my dorm. I think everyone should treat one another with manner and courtesy, especially in this special situation. I feltl so sorry for my cousins because this was the first time they had dinner with me in the USA.
I also feel self-contradictious with my major. I am taking 2 economic classes this semaster. I got 87 on my history of western economics class, but I only got 68 on the Microeconomics class. I don't know if I am good at business field, and I do't know weather to choose accounting as my major.
I worried about my GPA, I worried about my parents' business, and I worried about my sister and her boyfriend's relationship. I don't know if they are really fit each other.
I feel burden because there are a lot of homeworks, my English still limit, and my mom always wants me have a good grade.
Dispite there are a lot of intracate feels on my mind, but I still feel contend somehow. I know I am lucky because all my family are supporting me, my friends are all around me when I have problem, I have chance to get higher education and I never complain to GOD.
This complicated mind led me to the memory of my high school life. I remembered when I was in 11th grade, in the end of April. There were tons of things going on. April is the season for badminton, it is my most intresting sport in my life. It always makes me feel confidence when I play badminton. There were a lot of competions during that period. But April was also the time for taking SAT. I took the courses for SAT extra help class after school, it was mandetory thing I need to do; April is also the busiest season for my parents' business, and at that time, my parents had no enough workers to do the job, then my parents asked me to work some hours after school, and i also took drive license class during that time, etc. As so many things were going on, can you image how did I solve all the problems. Actually I didn't solve all the problems because I didn't go to the badminton match, and I cancelled my drive lessons. People always face tradeoff. "oppotunity cost" is the most impression words in my mind when I took econimic course, that means if you want something you like, you have to give up something else you like. Chinese people said:"you cannot have fish and bear paw at once." for instance If you want to have a good grade, you'd better put lots of effors on it, and you gotta reduce the rate of watching TV and talk/chat with your friends.
Even though there are a lots of challenge things in my life, I think I have the ability to solve them. I think the most challenge thing is to make chioce, but it's the way of life and it's the way to make you grow up. I know everthing is going to be better finally. Chinese leader MaoZeDong said:"Nothing is too hard to achieve, if you willing to climb."
2 comments:
This was a very wonderful posting with lots of details and feelings. Keep up the great work Yan!
Sorry to read about your dinner. It is so uncomfortable when people act impolitely. I hope you and your cousins are OK now.
i will try my best..my cousins and me are getting even better now
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