How to move on?

What is new in these days?
Nothing actually except lying on my bed watching some stupid movies.

We finally decided to go to “All White Yacht” club this Friday
But I am not that excited-I don’t know why.

I need to find a white dress to go to the party
But I couldn’t find any.
The good thing is that CC and Sophie said they are going to give me one.

No more motive and passion
What happen to my life?

I used to be a most active girl in my circle
But I couldn’t find her anymore

Please come back
My old life, my passion and my happiness.

I think it is because too much stress recently...

My younger sister just got a baby girl last Thurday
I am so happy about it
but my mom worry about me at the same time because I still dont get married
Come on, I am not ready.

My daddy pass the citizenship exam at the same day
My whole family was so exited about it
I am proud of my dad because his English is very limited
But look at me..
I still haven't pass the road test yet

I think it is time to move on.
But how?

Work,School,Family,Friendship and Relationship

At Thursday (6/24), I went to Miranda’s house to have sleep-over because I couldn’t stand for the heat in my room. But we went to CC’s house instead after we got to Miranda’s house. At Friday (6/25),I received a call from Abacus bank. The HR dept. asked me to work from that coming Monday. I was really surprise but worried and nervous as well. I couldn’t explain why, it made me down for a while.

At the afternoon, my boyfriend and I went to his aunt’s house because we decided to go to Atlantic City Casino. I don’t like gambling but I still went. When we got there, we were really surprise because we got a president suite to stay with and ate whatever we wanted to. Everything was luxury which I only seen them on TV.

The next day (Saturday), we went to beach and had some rides. The weather was too hot but we were all very relaxed. At the night time, we picked up wine and liquid and had a big dinner. The most wonderful thing was that we don’t need to pay any coz somebody got very good credit at casino.

Sunday, I went back to Long Island, when I almost got to my house, I became too moved coz I felt like I haven’t seen my family for a loooooooong time. I almost cried when I thought about the moment I see my mom. The feeling just like the moment I saw my mom when I first came to the America. I went home first; I talked with my sisters (Qing and Amy) and played with my little brother. I felt satisfied at that moment coz everything seems like pretty stable. Amy is still a talkative girl except she grows a lot, and my little brother was still boiled. I went to our store after that. I thought my parents were going to be excited however they were too busy. I didn’t even have chance to talk with them. I Worked for an hour then went back to Flushing.

Monday, June 28, 2010, it was the first day of working. I went to Canal Branch to have a basic training and did the finger print. Then I went to Nassau Branch to really start working. My department supervisor is really nice. I can tell that he is very patient. He explained to me every single thing very careful. I was too nervous, but he made me relax. My department is called OAD. I still wasn’t sure what that dept. supposes to do when my supervisor trained me at the first day. Right now (two weeks), I am pretty sure what is going on. I love that job I don’t know why. I think it is maybe I still feel challenge and my co-workers are very helpful.

Today I went to school to confirm about my financial aid status coz I checked online yesterday, it shows that my tuition for my last semester is about 6 grams. Jesus, that scared me because I have no way to pay them all. Throughout the checking, I know that it is going to be lot more cheaper to be a part time student. Therefore I dropped one course which I don’t need. Even though I waited for the line for like an hour, but I was happy that I found out my tuition is going to be cheaper and I noticed that I registered a wrong course. Thanks God it is still not too late.

Today I made a little mistake at work. Hope it is not going to affect my credit.

Besides school, work and family, my friendship is fine as well. I hung out with TSO last Saturday at Mad at Chicken. That is a Korean restaurant at Northern Blvd, the food and the atmosphere is pretty good and the price is not bad. I met lots friend over thare at that day. ( 见鬼了)

Only thing I think I am not satisfied is the relationship with my boyfriend. I don’t know why we must argue at least once a week. Every time I fight with him, I want to break up with him (no, actually I don’t want to, I think I just want him to pay more attention on me and respect and love me more). Yesterday, he talked with me very patiently when I looked down. He tried to make me happy. I think we are fine but need more time to accept each other’s weakness.