Interview

I had a phone interview with Abacus Federal Saving Bank about two weeks ago. When the HRD employer asked me about my status in the America, I told them that I only have green card and I would like to work full time. She told me that she would call me back to schedule an interview for me. I thought I am not qualified because I only have green card. But she called me back yesterday and wanted me to have interview this morning.

I went to the bank this morning pretty early. First of all, a lady asked me to fill out a form as the most company does, and then she asked me to type a letter and do the Excel as soon as possible. When I opened the Excel software, I got a shock because it is 2003 version. I only know the 2007 version. I told them about it, then a lady gave me a hind to find those icons, I have done it pretty well.

I waited for the lady to interview me like an hour. She asked me lot questions about my job and my life. She looks really nice and very professional. I hope one day I can be a lady like her. She also asked me about this bank. I think I did really terrible because I didn’t prepare for it. I didn’t know anything about this bank except I know this bank provides banking service to immigrant and local resident mostly.

Actually I did research about this bank yesterday. But I couldn’t remember the creator’s name and when it was found. Only thing I remember was that a lady committed a fraud many years ago which had ruin the bank’s reputation. Lot of clients waited for a long line to take back their saving. However, the creator was really smart and handled this problem pretty well. I wanted to talk about more about this bank to the lady who interviews me. However, I was too shy to talk more. And I was not sure if I said too much to the position.

Anyway, the interview was over. They are going to contact me in a week if they are going to hire me. I pray to God. Please let me in. when I read the article about Abacus’s creator, I was moved because his goal is to provide service to our community and immigrant. It will be so cool if I can do this kind of job. I will be proud of myself by helping our “family” to get their loan and helping them to have better life.

I had learn a lot about interview skill. The very important one is that I have to be prepared before interviewing.

My Weird Feeling

what I have done in these days?

Friday was CC's birthday, we went to a Thai restaurant called BKNY at flushing, Bayside. I will rate this restaurant for 5 stars because the atmosphere, service and dishes are awesome and the price was not too bad. (average 20 bucks/person). My boyfriend works for an Asian restaurant, he refused to come with us originally because he was kind of tired of Thai food. But when he tasted it, he couldn't believe that it was really delicious. Especially "Green Curry with seafood" and "seafood pad Thai".

After Dinner, we was trying to go to a bar so that we can drink. However we were all too full to absorb. therefore we decided to go to my apt. to have a house party. my room was pretty small. We felt that it was too boring to drink only, so that CC said she wanted to put make up on my boyfriend. LOL. It was really funny. I was cracking out by his make up. I think CC is considered a professional make up girl. She really makes my boyfriend like a girl with her fake long curly hair.

We took lot of funny pictures on him, and he was pretty enjoy with his new make up. "Narcissist"

I had a interview with NY Life Insurance Company today. I have learn a lot, but I am not sure if it is the one that I am looking for. I need to earn some income for this Summer and for next semester. I am not sure if I can be focus. The Abacus Bank HR dpt. had phone interviewed me this morning as well. I thought I found a job eventually, however, he only needs part time employee. Sigh! I really hope they told me why I couldn't get hired because I can learn from fault that made. But they alway want me to wait. How long should I wait for?

I am going to have a training next week hopefully. I need to pass a state exam to be a Insurance agent. Gosh, please give me more passion to do it. I think I need to learn more about this field first in order to know if I can do it.

Be Wise

Life is boring

Done nothing except working and eating

Neither cold nor hot today

An admirer with offer of hospitality

He wants to go out with me

I think I told him I have a boyfriend

I feel like betrayal of my boyfriend if I date with him

Thinking about how to excuse myself from him

But I cannot think of any

It is one of my shortcomings

It is time to learn

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Discussing financial event with a friend

He always oppose me

He thinks China is going to surpass the America

I think he is deceived by media

There is always reason behind it

But he couldn’t see it

He prefers to believe what he has expected

It is going to be very dangerous

Just too optimistic

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Overall, there are no other options for post-crisis era in China

China is still growing rapidly

And America is still finding a way to stop his growing

New energy is his another way

Our era is gonna have another big change

Wind energy, Electric energy and Nuclear energy

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“Wise man have their mouths in their hearts, fools have their hearts in their mouths”

Is There a Global Warming or not?

I attended a QQ group party the day before yesterday. The weather was great. I wear a mini skirt and a tank. I think I am hot enough.HAHA!The creator asked me to plan a fun party for him, but he told me at the day of the party. I didn’t have time to get it done. Therefore, I just told him a few games that everyone can easy participate. However, the people who came to join the party were all too shy and didn’t wanna participate except date with the girls and sing. Overall the party was pretty fun.

My boyfriend and me and a girl went to SOHO in the next day. In the morning, I felt a little cooler than last day, at the night time, it was so cold. Therefore, we went to shop for spring clothes. My boyfriend bought lots of clothes, and tried them on one by one when he got home. Also he rearranged the closet and his personal staffs. He was so funny last night, because when he tried a cloth on, he pretended he was like a superstar, and using extravagant act to express it. I don’t know how to explain his action. It was so funny and cute.

Today is raining, the weather sharp down inexpectly. I bethink of a show called “财经郎眼“， it is a great Chinese economic show about current events. I remember they talked about “Alarming Fraud of changing in weather”. Basically it discusses about there is no global warming. The event proceeded from the University of East Anglia’s computer server is invaded by hacker, the conversation of meteorologists’ email are exposed. People thunderstruck realized that the global warming is just an elaborate swindle. I dubitative when I heard of it because global warming seems like a cogent fact in our life. Many scientists have been proved that there is a global warming by lots of evident, such as those close to extinction of polar bear. However through my keenly aware of NY weather, I start to believe what the show discusses about. Maybe there is no global warming. I don’t know if it is a good thing because we know we will use lot more energy for cold weather than hot weather.

It is June right now, hope the cold weather only last for few days. This will make sense for us.

Super Hot Room

OMG! My apt. is super hot. No a/c, only a mini fan. I don’t know how do I survive in this terrible condition? My little sister kept writing on my facebook wall to ask me to go home because school is over. But I didn’t reply, I wanna try something different for this summer. I am still waiting for FirstTrade Company to have an interview with me. I watched lots shows or news about stock, economic, and finance, I just realized that I am really interesting at finance field. I don’t know why, I just like it. I was wondering if I chose a wrong major. Accounting is no longer my only target field. If I can get in, it is another turning point of my life.

This weekend is pretty bored. I didn’t do anything except lying on my bed watching “three kingdoms”. It is a four of the most famous novels in China. Now it dramatized. It is a great movie because I learned a lot from it. Not only the history of age of three kingdoms, but also the way of bears oneself.

My boyfriend got a ticket from BBQ party at Corona Park; it costs him 115 bucks, because he parked at a traffic lane. But no other cars in the same lane had the ticket. Therefore we went to traffic office to have “appeal not guilty”. But we went to a wrong place. We had a big fight again after we went back to Flushing because he asked me to print the pictures out as soon as possible, but I was deceived by the store owner. It costs me lot more money and took lot longer time to print the pictures out. He blamed me that I was an idiot. Sad!

Gosh, it is extremely hot now. I have to buy an A/C as soon as possible. I don’t want my boyfriend sees a “cooked pig” lies on the bed when he comes home.

Should I need to compromise?

I got terrible sunburn after BBQ. However, I didn’t feel sorrow or sad, because this was first time of my life getting a tan. I think it is so cool to look healthier. Plus, I just realized that I won’t have allergy to the Sun if I don’t put any sun block lotion on me.

The next day of the BBQ was my middle school girlfriend’s wedding party. I placed myself in ridiculer position when I got there: There were two wedding parties in a same restaurant, I went to a wrong one, and I even said Hi and wave to the bride. When I got closer I realized that she is not my friend. It was so embarrassing. So I left. Thanks God that there was no one knows me.

The party was pretty good. It was usual as always. No new ideas, no new conception. Fuzhouese’s wedding party is always like that, I didn’t expect there is any new scenes happened. I met many of my old friends, middle school’s and even elementary school’s classmates. I couldn’t imagine that we can still hang out and had fun at the other shore by the Atlantic Ocean. I didn’t go to KTV with them after party because I didn’t feel like to go.

When I got home, I called my “best” friend, because I wanted to carry back lots staffs that I left in her house. When my boyfriend and I got there, I felt so uncomfortable; I couldn’t explain what the feeling look like. It just made me unnatural and untruthful. I think our relationship stops after BBQ party. I knew her personality, she will never say sorry even feel sorry to me. Anyway, my life still needs go on.

Yesterday, my TSO friends had a BBQ party again, they called me many times to join them, but my arms still hurt by the sunburn. And I have already eaten before they called me. I refused to go because I don’t want to waste my money. That is it. But I really like to hang out with them because it makes me very comfortable and happy. The sad thing was that they called me at the night, but I missed their calls.

My conclusion is that it is really hard to keep a good relationship. I am really confused what a friendship really is. Good friendship makes my life swinging. Should I need to compromise?

Is it a Lost or a New Way?

My mom keeps calling me these days because she wants me to find an accounting related job during this summer. Her coercion makes me stressed out. Therefore I wrote my resume and send it out to many companies. However, it is been 3 days already, there is no response at all. I can’t work at the library anymore because it is just wasting my time. What should I do? I remember one of my professors told us that it is a great time in our life as a student, because once we get out of school, we will realize how cruel the world is. It is a dog-eat-dog competition world. I begin to believe what he said since lots things happened on these days, I just realized that I am too innocence. I am on the position of being confused and disoriented. Why can’t the world be simple, why can’t people treat each other with trust and honor? At lease I always did.

I lost a lot these days. First of all, I lost one of my best friends. I am not sure if she changed and I changed. Our relationship is no longer like before since she and a girl friend decided to have a BBQ Party at Memorial Day which is Monday. We were so excited and amusived about it. I asked my boyfriend to have day off on Monday to join us. He implored his boss and finally his boss approved it. He also invited three of his co-workers to join as well. They were even more excited than us. However, my friend said she would like to change our BBQ date to Sunday because her boyfriend was off on Sunday only; he really liked to join us. I didn’t know what to say at that moment because I knew my boy friends and his co-workers couldn’t change the date, and I knew my friend really wanted her boyfriend to join us. Therefore, I discussed with my boyfriend about it and tried to convince him to change the date even though I knew it was impossible. But he was really mad at me and started to fight with me. He said I care more about my friends than him and I never care about his feeling. I agreed with him but I still fight with him somehow. Finally I compromised, then I texted my friend told her that we really couldn’t change the date for her boyfriend. She understood and she said she was fine with it.

At Sunday, we supposed to prepare everything for tomorrow’s BBQ party. However, my best friend didn’t care about it; she didn’t even think about to help me. She just did whatever she wanted to do. I told myself: it is ok, I can make it. She is probably not in the good mood. I knew she pretended she was like usually. But her poker face unveiled everything. At the end, I didn’t buy any food because I have no room to refrigerate them. I thought my friend was going to help me today and restore food in her house, but I didn’t see any signs that she would like to do it. Ok, fine, maybe we can buy food tomorrow, it is gonna be more fresh. I told my boyfriend about today’s situation and why I didn’t buy any food. But he seemed didn’t understand me, we had fight again. He said he would not ask me to do anything anymore and he said I am useless. What should I say? Probably I am useless and I am very weak of solving problems.

Finally BBQ party started at Monday. I assigned my boyfriend and his co-workers to buy food at the early morning, then Ricky and me went to Corona Park to look for a good place to have BBQ. We were pretty rushed. When we found the good location, I assigned Ricky to pick up my friends and my job was to call my friends to come over. However, everyone was coming and helping me except my best friend. She was still lied on her bed and told me that she didn’t want to come over . I was so mad at that moment, but I still kept calling her. I thought she lost her mind at that moment. Actually I didn’t know what she thought about. She started this BBQ party. But now she didn’t want to join because her boyfriend couldn’t come? I was really busy at that time, I didn’t have time to care about if she is coming or not. During the middle of the party, she called me and she said she is coming, I was really happy because I think she still know how to care about her friend. We had fund and thing went pretty well and smooth. But at about 5 o’clock, one of my friends Sophie had to go home to have diner with her family, so she asked Ricky to drive her back. My best friend said she has to leave as well because she had to do lot things at home. She needs to wash clothes and other things. I knew it was an excuse. At that moment, I couldn’t speak of any words from my month because I was super-duper mad at her. She will not my best friend anymore, she is no longer consider my partner for my business because I really don’t understand her. I don’t know why she becomes so selfish. What is wrong with her? If she has any problems, why can’t she say it out to us? The funniest thing was that she came back when we were cleaning. She said she didn’t mean to leave; she just wanted to go to bathroom. It was contradictory just like our relationship.

I think I ever said that if two people are of the same mind, their sharpness can cut through metal. From this episode, I knew we are not of the same mind anymore. Maybe we are never of the same mind. I was just too innocence. I think I am not only lost a best friend, I also lost my patient.